Friday, February 2, 2018

With My Consent

I am awareness. Everything else is an illusion, a mystery. But the mystery is in me, projected from me. What fear can I have of what appears?

I am the field in which all of this arises. The play is played, the music heard. It is but entertainment. I am unaffected.

Joy only in what is revealed. It does not affect me. Good or bad, a dream only. I enjoy it. 

All resolves into me, as I am, as I was, and will be. Nothing happened. But all was good fun.

Sound and fury appearing in stillness. Nothing to fear or change. All happens with my consent.

What could be better than this?

Thursday, February 1, 2018

We Are That Awareness

Where can I find a particle of the universe that isn't aware? I exist. To know that is to be aware. But what about the material world that surrounds me? Do I assume it is unaware? I do not.

We know that the molecules of steel cling to each other in patterns defined by their makeup. From iron to the various forms of steel, particles know when they are next to each other. They cling and hold together according to their composition. It may not be our level of awareness, but the atoms know what they are next to and respond accordingly.

In the paired particle experiments, paired particles, when separated, even from space, respond to any change of spin in one of them. At some level we cannot deny that awareness is there.

Water clings to itself until separated by a stronger force. Water, being a great solvent, dissolves much of what it comes in contact with. Can we not say that minerals are not aware when coming into contact with water? No, they respond by breaking apart.

Doesn't the earth spin in harmony with the sun, aware of it's place? And don't the stars have their orbits in response to the gravitational fields around them? Doesn't light bend around gravitational fields?

I could go on along this line, but you get the point. This is an aware universe, from the atom to the stars. Nothing is unconnected. Nothing is separate. Awareness holds this whole universe together.

As a sentient human we may have a more personal awareness than rocks or stars. But is it essentially different? I think not. We are one in this essential awareness. We are not separate, but one with all that is. We are that awareness.

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

The Grand Show

When you know that you are that essence, and everything is that essence, where is death? Images arise, play their roles, and fold back into essence.

Where can there be any attachment when all is one? There would need to be separation for attachment to have any meaning. And there is none.

Aloneness is not possible, because that would imply two, and essence is all there is. No other for comfort.

Stillness speaks loud and clear. Distractions of otherness fade like dream characters. All possibilities arise and dance. All have their say. Then stillness takes them home.

Essence is still while the play goes on. The show is grand. So many stages. So many actors, lost in their roles. Who wakes up?

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Presence of Objects

If you look at an object in front of you, where is it? The simple answer might be, "Over There." But if you dig a little deeper, you might say, "It is in presence."

Objects might appear all around you, but there is not one that is not in presence. Your body and mind are also in presence. Wherever you are, presence is there.

Consider presence as unconditioned, because anything that appears to your mind and senses will take up presence. This is so whether you welcome the object or not.

This unconditioned presence is what you are. Think about it. What else could you be. Even your mind and personality are present. And that presence is prior to body, mind. 

Friday, January 19, 2018

Ego Desires

As long as you believe the person is real, there are a lot of ego rewards. When you lose that belief, and awareness is your essence, ego desires drop like so much fantasy. 

Tuesday, January 16, 2018


I am the awareness that watches Maury. It's so fun to watch. It's like being involved without being affected. It's peaceful and enjoyable at the same time. Maury's so enjoyable, even his problems. Maury is actually at rest in me. 

Monday, January 8, 2018

Without Qualities You Are

Every one of us has a unique perception of the world and a unique personality. Each and every one of us is aware of this uniqueness. Few of us stop to consider that the awareness that provides our unique perception is the same.

Awareness does not play favorites. It is available to all of us. It is only the flavor of that awareness, filtered through our unique mix of vasanas, that is different. We are all aware, but we filter the objects differently.

Enlightenment is taking a step back from our filters and settling in awareness itself. From that vantage point, dispassion sets in, objectivity becomes available, and freedom arises as judgment ceases.

From the vantage point of awareness, our uniqueness as a person is just a set of qualities, an appearance only. This is freedom from the jiva, and freedom for the jiva.

All qualities and modifications in the world are dependent on you, but you awareness, are not dependent on them. You are qualityless. You, awareness, are deathless and limitless.

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Unconditional Self Acceptance

From childhood we often take on self demeaning attitudes projected on us. If we were not loved in a way that gave us  confidence, we often continue that self demeaning conditioning long after we leave home. Consider this, and give yourself a break.

Best to continually step back from your automatic self response and take an objective look. Honestly, you are not as bad as you think, and a little self forgiveness is in order.

You already know you are awareness and can stand back and treat yourself with a little compassion. Wear your personality lightly. It's not who you really are.

Don't beat yourself up with inquiry. Look at yourself gently. Continually forgive yourself. Step back and look at your reactions. Just look. Consider your reactions from the standpoint of unconditional awareness. You might find room to give yourself break. That's progress. 

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Aware Universe

Existence = Consciousness. For me this seems self evident and means we live in a  universe of non dual awareness. This universe is one whole, non separate field of interconnected wholeness. Only name and form seem to separate.

Since this universe exists, something existed to create it. Since consciousness is knowing, whatever created this universe had to be conscious and knowing of what it created.

Beautiful, intelligent awareness is pervasive. Positive elections are aware of negative electrons. Magnetic forces respond to each other, and paired particles respond to spin from long distances.

This whole universe from micro to macro is aware of itself. To my mind this does not seem refutable.

Sunday, December 31, 2017

What Seems True

1. I have never known non existence. I can conceptualize non existence, but I can never know it.

2. Awareness implies existence. The one thing I cannot deny is that I exist.

3. Experience informs me that something does not come from nothing. Therefore, this universe, observed as coming forth from the big bang, did not come from nothing.

4. Everything I experience seems to have a cause. It does not seem plausible that there was no cause.

5. Whatever is created in this universe has to be created by that original cause. That cause, whatever it is, exists, and I cannot be other than wholly that.

6. Knowing that I am That, whatever That is, I have no choice but to surrender to That. Which means I accept everything without choice.

7. The limitations of this body are a contraction only, of That. When the limitations cease on death, That still remains. Knowing that I have never been anything but That, whatever That is, I remain that.

8. As a limited person I experience no free will. How could I? I did not create this set of limitations, this focal point of consciousness. It's a setup I inherited.

9. However, as I can be nothing but that which created me, That being the essence of what I am, I am freedom itself.

10. I am this presence, this awareness. I do not imagine it limited to this body/mind. When this body/mind goes, It would be presumptuous to believe that the remaining presence awareness in all beings is not me. 

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Paper and Watercolors

Paper and watercolors are a good metaphor for the Self. For example, I take clean white sheet of paper and paint a picture. Then I paint another one, and another.

All three pictures are nothing but paint. I have created name and form with the lines and colors. Yet each picture is just paint.

The essence of all the pictures, the blank page, is a metaphor for unlimited awareness, the Self.

The pictures are all mythia, paint creating name and form.

The paper is not dependent on the paint, name or form, but the picture is totally dependent on the paper. 

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Presence Is

One can entertain ideas,
Yet hold them lightly.

In holding lightly,
The unknown is embraced.

Free fall is still
A presence.

Being is, a concept
It is not.

Be the presence.
It cannot be lost.

Awareness Is

If awareness is, Existence is. I see no difference. Ideas come and go. In the coming, is awareness, in the going is awareness. All I know is awareness With name and form. Without an object, Awareness is. In this body, Or no body, Awareness is. We can conjure Many things, Destroy many things, And only Awareness Remains. When this body dies, This focal point is mute. Yet existence remains, And therefore awareness remains. Am I awareness without A body? Only Awareness knows.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Cause and Effect

Awareness, the creator, sustainer, and knower of all that is, has no second to question its perfection. Any cause in the universe falls under this ultimate cause. Sort of answers all the questions, doesn't it?

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

The Search for Truth

I always wanted freedom. The path for me was the pursuit of truth. Truth was finding an answer to the existential questions: Why me? Why here? For what? In order to pursue truth without interference I went into business. The simple equation was this: perform a required function and get paid enough to have a stable life providing time for contemplation. I did not want to have my income tied to my questions, or in any way impinge on my freedom of exploration.

For this reason I did not want a job as a priest, or minister, or philosopher. Business I could pursue dispassionately. I did not want to own my own business because I wanted to be free of it. I did not want to be a manager because I did not bring home worries from work.

I spent most of my free time reading and studying whatever interested me in my pursuit of truth. Many people asked me why I read so much. The answer was simple. I couldn't figure this all out on my own. If I was going to find the answer, I needed help. I needed input. I needed the knowledge others had gained.

This pursuit took me through psychology, self help, evolutionary biology, sociology, philosophy, etc. It took time. But I had provided time by being a simple householder. I lived simply beneath my means. I did my job. I did it well. I left it at my desk when I walked out the door

I found in my search mostly what was not the answer. It was a process of "not this, not this," separating the wheat from the chaff. Christian mysticism came close, but it was very individualistic and tied to experience. It was not knowledge that could be easily passed to another. What experience would I have to have to know?

Advaita Vedanta eventually rose to the top. It was knowledge that was supremely thought out, logical, and thorough. When contemplated as edified by a knowledgeable teacher, it makes sense. Vedanta is a science of consciousness. It can only be said to be religious or spiritual, because it answers existential questions. Who am I? What is God. What to I need for happiness?

It was astounding for me to realize that my questions had all been answered thousands of years ago. The knowledge and understanding provided by Vedanta is deeply satisfying. It answers fundamental questions posed in any psychology, philosophy, and religion. It transcends them. Self realization brings peace. The search drops. Freedom is revealed to already be the case. The truth becomes self evident.  

Monday, November 6, 2017

Absolute Dream

When you dream at night you create a whole world full of people, animals and a storyline. You experience it with no knowledge that it is a dream until you wake up. Then you know it was entirely your own creation. One can even say it was entirely unreal, and yet you touched, felt, smelled, and experienced a material world.

How is it then so hard to realize that the waking world is no different? This whole world of name and form is a projection, a dream of the Absolute? Where is the difference? The Jiva dreams. The Absolute dreams. No difference. Not two. Sat, chit, ananda. 

Thursday, November 2, 2017

No Separation

If you have two people in a room you can do an interesting experiment. The first person says, "I am here and you are there." "No," says the second person, "I am here and you are there."

Since both persons statements are true, both are here and there. So where is the separation? Here and there are both appearances in awareness. In each case awareness is primary and the position of the bodies makes no difference. Both bodies are experienced in awareness which has no separation.


Can that which is not an object exist? You, the subject, Awareness, do you not exist? Of course! You, the  knower, unmanifest though you may be, know you exist.

With the projection of Maya every name and form appears. All are objects. They exist. Therefore, existence is primary. Manifest, or unmanifest, you are existence, consciousness, bliss. Wherefore then, can the sting of death be real?

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

The Bane of Existence

In the pot and the clay example, no matter what shape the clay becomes, it is the shape that determines its usefulness: a platter, a pot, a jar, a cup. Naturally we lock onto the usefulness of the object, not on the fact that it is made of clay. We dismiss the essence and latch onto name and form.

This is what we do with ourselves and others. We take the objective function, name and form, and neglect the underlying reality. Everything is objectified and given a value based on its usefulness. The underlying reality is forgotten and becomes unavailable. Thus the presence of Ishvara, reality, existence, consciousness, bliss, is overlooked. This alienation from the whole becomes the bane of our existence. 

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Only That

You could say that I searched for nonduality for many years. But, after arrival one does not claim to have searched at all! He who searched has left town, never to be seen again. Who was the doer? That!

I am not the doer. You are not the doer. That is the doer. All one doer, not two doers, as in a me or a you. "The sinner and the saint are just exhanging notes" to quote Nisargadatta. Where is good and bad when there is only That?

Some have called nondual awareness impersonal. But in fact, when there is only you, nothing but intimacy remains. When there is only all that is as you and me, everything is intimate. Nothing could create more intimacy. When the "observer is the observed", as Krishnamurti says, where is the distance?

Where is the harm when no one is doing anything to you, nor you to them? What opinion can you have about what is going on? Everything is allowed. There are no winners or loosers. Only That. Only That, being what it is. Loving what is. No one to save. Only That.